Premonition vs. Paranoia

I'm not sure if I mentioned this in previous entries, but when me and Martha were together... just randomly out of the blue, I'd get an awkward feeling, which usually resulted in her wanting to break up the next day... No, not the fact that she started acting weird, at times, we wouldn't even be talking, I'd be eating dinner, and get that feeling and call her right away... I'd ask her if anything was wrong, she'd deny it... ask her again, deny, ask, deny... Then either later that night or the next day, she admit she was falling out of love me, or that she was keeping something from me... We'd work things out, and yeah yeah, but the whole point is the "weird" feeling... I feel it now... And I just have a weird feeling something bad is gonna happen to me... something BIG... Maybe it's just me taking things to excessive measures, but I don't know... I hope it's just my brain over thinking things... but what if it's not... I guess we'll just have to wait and see right...