Belated Thanskgiving

(I tried to post this a view days ago, but it didn't post, so I don't know...)

So Thanksgiving has come and went, and I know I'm a little late as far as this blog goes, but I really wanted to point out all the people I'm thankful to have in my life through this passed year. I've met a lot of new friends, stayed in contact with the old, and unfortunately some friends became enemies. This passed year has had a lot of good and bad, mostly bad, but my friends, my true friends, have been there for me through thick and thin, and I give all my thanks to you. So if your reading this, you're probably one of those people, well... judging by who I know reads this, you ARE one of these people. Thank you again, thank you a million times!

And It's A...

BOY!!!

That's right... me and Martha went to the elected ultrasound place and found out that it's a boy. We are so stoked and excited. It feels so good to finally know what it is, and I can't even put into words how amazing it feels to know that I'm going to have a son. Wow... even typing it feels surreal, but it's not... it's true... I'm a DAD!!!

WOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alright, I'll Post One...

I don't know how many times I opened up my blog and started typing than gave up.. anyways... Now I'll do it I guess, except I forgot all the things I was going to blog about to begin with... I'll try and remember...

Ryan, my cousin, is out of the hospital and back at school. He'll be on blood thinners for a few months to completely dissolve the clots. He's not in much pain, but can't walk very far without running out of breath. They said this should be temporary, so hopefully it is. I'm so glad he's okay, and getting better.

Do you remember Jake from The Bachelorette? Of course you do, well guess what... HE'S GONNA BE THE NEW BACHELOR! w00t w00t! Don't judge me, he's a tight doo, anyways...

The job I was so eagerly awaiting fell through. I got a call the night before it started and said it was postponed till the following Tuesday, pssh... So what... Thursday rolls around, and I got a call saying it's been canceled... WOO!!! Few days later I get a call again saying that there's a warehouse job available... so I say yes... What a mistake. I hate this job. Aside from the fact that I'm the only white guy there, I get called out for being white... not literally "HEY WHITEY!" but, here... I'll give you one instance, this is exactly what went down: Me and a coworker were putting stickers on boxes because the ones that already had stickers ran out. Then my supervisor comes over, and says "John... why are you putting stickers on these boxes, build them, put the stuff in and send them to Wade, He the one that do stickers." So I say "Okay," and start building the boxes while the other guy continues to do what I was doing, and nothing was said to him. I didn't think much of it, but it happened again... Even when I wasn't putting stickers on the boxes, and the other guy was. The supervisor straight up said "John, I told you not to put the stic... ah hell..." and walked away. There's other things that happened, but I ain't gots the time or patience to type it, but anyways... Tonight I'm gonna get a call saying if I come back tomorrow, because the first 3 days are the "weeding" process. I made it through day 1, today was day 2, so we'll see... If I stay I'll be working Mon - Fri, from 8:00 - 4:30, loading boxes, unloading boxes, over and over and over and over... My body hurts so mad right now it's not even funny. And it's not me just being a bitch, everyone I work with is in pain too. Maybe if I go back I'll have to do some routine stretches in the morning before I go. OH! I forgot the most important thing. This job is it in a huge warehouse that's 34 degrees... ALL THE TIME. We deal with cold foods, so it has to be cold, and damn is it cold. I go in there with 3 shirts and a sweater and I'm still freezing. My nose can't stay warm and it always goes numb, ugh! If you know me you know I hate the cold. I hate ice, I hate everything that's under 75 degrees... So it's not pleasant, but we'll see. I look at it this way... I have to sacrifice my time, body, and patience for my kid, because that's why I'm doing this. To support my fiance and my child. So that's what gets me through it...

Speaking of baby and fiance stuff... Martha went to the doctor's and we got another ultrasound, WOO! Also she was approached with the offer to participate in a scientific study about baby growth. They made some hypothesis's and just needed field research to prove the theory, and Martha agreed. For participating we'd receive 5 more ultrasounds, one free 3d ultrasound, and up to $150. They made her an appointment, and an hour before they called and said she couldn't be apart of it because she wasn't 18. Bummer, but in good news... She thought she could feel it move today :). I hope that true cuz n a few weeks, I'll be able to feel it :)

That's all for now, bye.

Hip-Hop Christmas

Funny video I made, or created I should say...

Baby & Baby

So my baby (Martha) is back from Oregon after 3 weeks, woo!!! We went out to dinner and it was nice, good food... everyone should check out Acapulco: Mexican Restaurant and Cantina. :) good stuff... And also... My other baby (eh... don't have a name yet, but the unborn child) is back too! We had an appointment today, and Martha thought she was going to get her blood taken, but that's not what happened... Usually when they call Martha in, they take her weight, blood pressure, and temperature, and then they send you back out to the waiting room for 15 more minutes, then call you back for the actual appointment. So when they called Martha in, I figured she'd be back in a few seconds, but she wasn't. She came out 15 minutes later with a sad face...

"What's wrong baby?" I asked.

"Didn't you get my call? I tried to tell you to come in," she said.

Checking my phone, I see it says "1 Missed Call. "It as on silent baby, I'm sorry, but why? What happened?" I exclaimed still worried.

"I got to hear the baby, and I wish you could have been there," she says as she sits down next to me.

"What? What do you mean?" I asked in a disappointed tone.

"She came in with the doppler heart monitor, and I could hear the babies heart beat, and it was so great, but it would have been so much better if we could have experienced it together," she informs me while holding onto my hand.

Sorry for the dialogue :P, but that's the gist of what happened. Sucks... but what am I going to do... Anyways, big stuff tomorrow big stuff... A new ultrasound image and my dad's birthday... w00t w00t!

Get Well Soon, Ryan

We just found out my cousin is in the hospital with blood clots in his lungs. I personally don't want to worry because I want to believe he's going to be okay so why sweat it, but I can't. I did some research to see what's up with the whole thing, and honestly, it doesn't look good, so I'm seriously on pins and needles... I am freaking out. He has been through so much, my aunt and uncle have been through so much already... I really hope everything turns out good. My hopes and prayers go out to you Ryan, get better and beat this thing! I love you cuz...

Back On The Work Force

So, it's been 2 weeks to the day since my wisdom teeth extraction. I thought well before now that the swelling would have gone down, and the pain would have diminished, but unfortunately not. My swelling is down probably 99%, but not 100%, and the pain I'm still dealing with. Sometimes I can't even chew on a piece of bread. I can't open up my mouth to even fit in a spoon full of soup. Bullshit I think, but today I get to meet with them. Talk to them about this, and the fucking hole in my tongue which still isn't completely healed either. So we'll see what happens...

In other things... I got a job! The only thing holding me back from being completely happy with this whole pregnancy was the fact that I'd have to rely on my parents to support my child. I couldn't take the fact of knowing that, so having a job really does uplift my spirit 10 fold.

I love Martha so much. I can;t fold back my feelings for her. The way she makes me feel, and loving every minute I spend with her means so much to me. When my friends have a problem, most of the time I'm the first person they come to, and to hear them talking about how their girlfriend left them, and so on and so forth, it kills me because I know how I felt when she left me, and to know they know how happy I am really hurts me because I have no answer. My friends trying to move on and do what he's got to do, but I couldn't. She, look at my old blogs. I was in a fucked up place... And people can give you advice and say this and that, even if they've been there, but nothing helps when it's you going through it right then and there... Anyways, my friend who was going through shit told me he envies what me and Martha had... He was jealous that we had what we have, and how lucky we both are to have each other. And it really hurt me, because I love Martha so much, and I can't hide it... I LOVE MARTHA! But I can just imagine how he feels knowing how happy we are, when he's feeling like shit. He's like my brother, and this is a place I don't want to see him. Shit, I ono...

Moving on... Baby news??? Anyone??? You? Okay, if you really want hear it... We still don't know if it's a boy or girl. Me and Martha both kind of agreed we want a boy, and she even thought it was a boy for awhile, but now she's saying that she wants a girl. At first, I couldn't imagine having a girl... I would be such a fucked Dad, I just know it. I'd be so paranoid of dipfuck guys playing their fucking games... I wouldn't let her date, haha, I'd be the typical Dad in high school movies, and guess what happens... they sneak out anyways and get into shit that I'd never want my daughter to go through. I'm so surprised, and thankful for the relationship I have with her parents, because if I was them, I would hate my guts... Anyways... the whole point is, that's how I thought, but when you actually are pregnant, everything changes. I want a healthy baby. I want a child... Boy or girl, I will love him/her with all my heart, soul, and every fiber in my body... Hopefully soon we will find out, and I can't wait...

So that's about it for now... Talk to ya'll later!