A New Chapter

Got today off to a great start. Got yelled at by one of our "members" here at work. Actually, she wasn't even a member, she was a random person calling with a question. After that I spilled coffee all over my desk and my pants. Freakin' sucks. But anyways... Maybe it sucks because today is going by so slow, and every second I'm here is another chance for something crappy to happen. Martha's pregnant. My nose is running like a faucet, and my face is all red. I'm hoping it because I'm blowing my nose with paper towels. I can't wait to get home. I'm working on something for Martha, and can't wait to work on it! I volunteered who to hang out wi a coworker, so it'll be just me and the kids. I'm going to take some allergy medicine when I get home hopefully it will help. Is it 5 yet?

A long, long time ago...

I typed an essay for an update, and it didn't even save. Wow! Well how about a bullet point summary of everyone that's happened since my last post.

- Got married

- Got a new job

- Had another son

- Got a promotion

- Best friend went to jail

- Got a tattoo

- Got another tattoo

- Best friend got out of jail

- Bought a house

- Wife is pregnant again... Just kidding.

Dang, I should have did that the first time. It's funny when you can put things into a list and realize not much has happened that really impacted your life in the past 4 years... But it does make those little things mean even more. I could have wrote that I bought a new car, but in the scheme of nits, the birth of Adam (my second son) meant so much more. I've gone through so many changes, and my life is different than it was. I feel blessed with my family, my job, and having God in my life more than he's ever been before. I love life!

My First Father's Day

Feels so surreal... I can't believe I'm a dad celebrating a holiday dedicated just for people like me... WOO! I got Martha a present for Father's Day, well a card, thanking her because I wouldn't be able to celebrate Father's Day if it wasn't for her allowing and making me a Father. :) She got me something too... She says it's from Jake, but I'm still anxious to see what it is...

Work, Baby, Sleep, Repeat

Wow, so... that;s basically my life now. I get up, get ready for work, go to work, come back, help take care of Jake, go to sleep, and do it all again the next day. I can't complain because I need to work to make money, I love spending time with Jake, and well... I love to sleep, so it's all good I guess. Jake's getting so big, but gettig more fussy, lol. My mom got here a few days ago, and it's really awesome seeing how she's already connecting with him. I wish my Dad was here, but he will be in good time. This Sunday is Fathers Day and I got him a t-shirt, a card, birth announcement, and DVD of Martha's baby showers and Jake's birth. I forgot to send him a DVD of all the pictures I've taken since Jake was born, but I'll send it soon. I can't believe it's been a month, today. Not much has really happened either. Each day fades into the other and it's very repetitive. But whatever, I can't wait till Jake starts talking and walking :).

I don't like rap much, but Hip-hop is starting to rub off on me, and this month I've been listening to a lot of it:

MY TOP 10 SONGS FOR MAY 2010 (SO FAR)
1) California Girls feat. Snoop Dogg - KATY PERRY
2) Airplanes feat. Hayley Williams - B.o.B.
3) Break Your Heart feat. Ludacris - TAIO CRUZ
4) Hey Soul Sister - TRAIN
5) Billionaire feat. Bruno Mars - TRAVIE McCOY
6) Forever Young feat. Mr. Hudson - JAY-Z
7) Need You Now - LADY ANTEBELLUM
8) If I Had You - ADAM LAMBERT
9) Like We Used To - A ROCKET TO THE MOON
10) This is War - 30 SECONDS TO MARS

One Week Of Baby

So life with the baby isn't as difficult as I thought. That's a different story for Martha though. I feel bad because she has to do so much, and I can't do much to help her. I'm trying but it's hard because I need to sleep for work, while she's up all night feeding him and changing his diapers. I'm sleeping through his cries and I know it upsets Martha, so I'm making it my personal goal to make her feel like she's not alone in this. Her boobs hurt a lot from breast feeding, and we can only hope it gets better. I hope it does. Jake turned 1 week yesterday and it is just so amazing. He is so beautiful and I love him, and Martha so much!

MY TOP 10 SONGS FOR MAY 2010 (SO FAR)
1) Get Out - CIRCA SURVIVE
2) Both Sides Of The Story - WE ARE THE IN CROWD
3) Letters And Love Notes - GO RADIO
4) Goodnight Moon - GO RADIO
5) Inside Of You - THE MAINE
6) More Than A Feeling (Boston Cover) - HIT THE LIGHTS
7) Lights Out - WE ARE THE IN CROWD
8) Your Love (The Outfield Cover) - I SEE STARS
9) Fall Asleep First - GO RADIO
10) Why I'm Home - GO RADIO

A Brand New Dad, A Brand New Start

Finally... after 9 agonizing months, I, John Van Mulligen, am indeed a father! WOO!!! I can't explain the feeling to look at him and know I helped create him. I can't even think of what to type because the feeling is so amazing, I just had to make a post... WOOO!!!!!!!

My Sleep Patterns Changed

Great song by The Early November... but anyways... my sleep pattern has changed. It's scaring me because I will literally sleep for 12-13 hours and Martha will finally wake me up and I'll still be tired... Today was probably the first day I got to wake up on my own, and even waking up I'm still tired. It's like my body can't get enough sleep, and even when it does it still wants more. How am I supposed to handle waking up 5 times a night to deal with Jake, when I can't sleep 13 hours without still being tired, AH! Lol, guess I'll have to suck it up... I've been taking that 5 Hour Energy and it really works, but Martha doesn't want me taking it anymore, so I don't know, we'll see...

BABY NEWS: Martha and I went to the doctor's where he informed us that she hasn't dilated yet, and that Jake is still growing. We're going to have to wait another week for an update, as well as get another ultrasound :). I like ultrasounds, but I don't like how Martha is being effected by this long pregnancy because the longer it takes, the more time he has to grow inside her, and it raises the likeliness of him having to be delivered by C-Section. We're crossing our fingers, but we both agreed that Jake's health is our number priority so if she has to get cut from stern to bow for him to be delivered safety then it is what it is, but of course we'd rather have a healthy Jakey delivered vaginally... It also scares me to, because him being the size he is, whether it's through C-Section of vaginally, I, personally, worry about Martha's health. I hope and pray nothing happens to her. That was my number 1 worry from the get-go... so many women die during pregnancy, I couldn't bare to raise Jake alone without her. Not saying I wouldn't or couldn't, but just imagining how hard it would be. Not hard in taking care of him alone, but hard knowing she's not here to raise our child together. It hurts just thinking about it. I still miss the days we'd smile and rub her belly together and smile and talk about him and what we're going to do when he's born. Now it's been reduced to crooked gazes talking about when he's going to be out so the pregnancy can be over with. Hopefully we can get back to the way it used to be soon. I'm still hopeful but I don't blame her for feeling the way she does, because I can understand, and it hurts me to see the pain she's in, and how we both just want it to be over with so we can finally hold Jake. I get chills still thinking about it :) COME ON JAKE COME OUT ALREADY, haha... any day now... 11 more days...